I Am So Sad

I am so sad - those words cry out for help. The feelings they express do not refer to a mild, momentary unhappiness, but more to the intense grief, caused by a loss, or a disappointment. The feeling does not come just from frustration, which can make you feel persistently gloomy, or dejected. Nor does it come from a sense of futility, which can trigger a mood of brooding despondency or depression.

Sadness essentially deals with a sense of irreparable loss over “what might have been.” The loss casts a pall over every vista. Like the pain of loss of a limb, the feeling irretrievably touches primary aspects of your life. Those words also express a cry for help.

The sad person suffers. You feel empty or numb. You may cry a lot. It may affect your sleep. You may eat too little, or too much. The sadness takes away your energy and makes you feel more tired. Some people even get stomach aches and headaches. The emotion makes it difficult for you to focus on your work. So, your output suffers. You may spend less time with friends and even find it difficult to concentrate on reading, or on watching TV. Sadness affects your work, your health and even prevents you from enjoying even the smallest pleasures in life.

• Sadness is not dejection, or depression. It is an emotion triggered by a loss, or a disappointment.
• Sadness affects your health and wellbeing.
• Sadness is triggered by images of “what might have been.”
• Sadness should reduce with time. If the grief persists, “speed dial circuits” may have been generated, which sustain the grief, just as tampering with a wound prevents it from healing.
• For relief, you should be convinced that you must move on.
• Recognize the thought patterns, which sustain your grief.
• Let your common sense take charge. It has the power to heal the pain.
• It can still the pangs of guilt within you.
• You need to realign your vision to a changed life.
• Self awareness will still the sadness emotion.
• Remember that your facial expressions also contribute to your moods.
• If your sadness still persists, you may require professional counseling.

Can An Algorithm Be Controlling The Mind?
I am not a physician, but an engineer. Way back in 1989, I catalogued how the ELIMINATION approach of an AI Expert System could reveal a way by which the nervous system could store and retrieve astronomically large memories.  That insight is central to the six unique new premises presented in this website. 

These new premises could explain an enigma.  A physician is aware of thousands of diseases and their related symptoms.  How does he note a symptom and focus on a single disease in less than half a second?  How could he identify Disease X out of 8000 diseases with just a glance?  

First, the total born and learned knowledge available to the doctor could not exist anywhere other than as the stored/retrieved data within the 100 billion neurons in his brain.  The perceptions, sensations, feelings and physical activities of the doctor could only be enabled by the electrical impulses flowing through the axons of those neurons.  The data enabling that process could be stored as digital combinations.

Second, combinatorial decisions of neurons cannot be made by any entity other than the axon hillock, which decides the axonal output of each neuron.  The hillock receives hundreds of inputs from other neurons.  Each hillock makes the pivotal neuronal decision about received inputs within 5 milliseconds.  Axon hillocks could be storing digital combinations.  It could be adding each new incoming digital combination to its memory store.  The hillock could fire impulses, if it matched a stored combination. If not, it could inhibit further impulses.  Using stored digital data to make decisions about incoming messages could make the axon hillocks intelligent.

Third, combinations are reported to enable a powerful coding mode for axon hillocks.  Olfactory combinatorial data is known (Nobel Prize 2004) to store memories for millions of smells.  Each one of 100 billion axon hillocks have around a 1000 links  to other neurons.  The hillocks can mathematically store more combinations than there are stars in the sky. Each new digital combination could be adding a new relationship link.  In this infinite store, specific axon hillocks could be storing all the symptom = disease (S=D) links known to the doctor as digital combinations.

Fourth, instant communication is possible in the nervous system.  Within five steps, information in one hillock can reach all other relevant neurons.  Just 20 Ms for global awareness.  Within the instant the doctor observes a symptom, feedback and feed forward links could inform every S=D link of the presence of the symptom. Only the S=D link of Disease X could be recalling the combination and recognizing the symptom.

Fifth, on not recognizing the symptom, all other S=D hillocks could be instantly inhibiting their impulses. The S=D links of Disease X could be continuing to fire. Those firing S=D link would be recalling past complaints, treatments and signs of Disease X, confirming the diagnosis.  This could be enabling axon hillocks to identify Disease X out of 8000 in milliseconds.

Worldwide interest in this website is acknowledging its rationale. Not metaphysical theories, but processing of digital memories in axon hillocks could be explaining innumerable mysteries of the mind.  Over three decades, this website has been assembling more and more evidence of the manipulation of emotional and physical behaviors by narrowly focused digital pattern recognition.  It has also been receiving over 2 million page views from over 150 countries.

I Am So Sad
What Causes Sadness?
The emotion can be triggered for any number of reasons. It could be the loss of a loved one, or a divorce. A disappointment, which changes your expectations from life can be the cause. You may have regrets about things you did, or did not do. You may have moved away from a town, away from friends and relatives, who gave you comfort. Needless tensions created by family or teenagers could cause you to painfully miss a happier life. Pain or suffering for a loved one could cause the sadness. In every case, the recalled images of "what life might have been" cause distress.

I Am So Sad
Is Time Not Healing The Wound?
It is quite normal for you to feel intense grief over a loss, or disappointment. But time is a great healer. However deep your grief, the sorrow will reduce over a period of days, or months. This is a normal neural event. It is a part of the design of nature. Nerve impulses tend to fade over time. The emotional signals, which caused you distress will fade over time, unless your own thoughts prevent the healing process. Normally, a wound also heals gradually. But, if you keep irritating it, it will remain raw and painful. Repeated living over your pain and loss will intensify the neural patterns. New "speed dial circuits” will be created within the nervous system, which continue to trigger the same level of distress. The pain will refuse to go away.

I Am So Sad
Are You Sure You Want To Move On?
One day, you must move on. Sadness heals. It is an emotion, which helps you to deal with sudden loss. Crying softens painful memories. Reliving the experiences help you to adjust to a new painful reality. Upto a point. If the sadness persists and causes you continuing distress, you must act to deal with it. You have to become convinced that it is time to leave the painful past behind and bring back your peace of mind. After all, it affects your work and your health. It prevents you from getting on with the rest of your life. The mental exercises suggested below will only succeed if you are convinced that they are necessary. Are you prepared to move on?

I Am So Sad 
What Makes Your Sadness Persist?
There are avenues of thought, which reinforce the pain pathways. A loss implies an irreversible change in your life. Instead of moving on with your life, you keep thinking about what might have been. The recall of a beloved image, which is no more possible will create fresh pain.

Guilt also plays a part. A sense of loyalty towards the absent relationship could keep you from thinking of a happy life alone. Your mind will shut away such thoughts with a sense of guilt. Guilt is the second emotion, which will reopen the wound. Out of the same sense of loyalty you may feel that sadness is justified and keep dwelling within the emotion. Reliving the past and feeling guilty about moving on will both keep the pain both fresh and raw.

I Am So Sad
Has Your Common Sense Taken Charge?
Your common sense is a rigorously independent intelligence within your nervous system. Within your triune brain, it is a powerful prefrontal network, which can be induced to take charge of your thought processes.

Emotions rule your lower level instinctual intelligences, which propose survival strategies for your life. Anger causes an animal to attack. Fear causes it to run away. And sadness causes it to withdraw from activity and adjust to loss.

Emotions are triggered by neural signals in the limbic system. But, those signals can go haywire. While emotions serve a purpose, erratic speed dial circuits can cause particular emotions to unreasonably dominate your behavior.

Fear, anger, or sadness can overwhelm you. If these circuits have not attained abnormal dominance (requiring medical treatment), the attention of your common sense can still the troubling emotions initiated by them.

I Am So Sad 
Do You Carry A Burden Of Guilt?
Your common sense can act only if your mind is not dominated by your emotions. In the first place, you need to deal with your sense of guilt. Guilt plays an important role in group behavior, preventing you from actions, which would trouble your community. Apply your common sense to reduce your pangs of guilt. Self awareness has that effect. Your problem is not “I am sad,” but “I am so sad.” You are suffering too much. Become aware of your guilt feelings about not dwelling on sad memories, or even on moments of joy after a bereavement. Pay attention to the physical symptoms of your feelings. Your attention to the physical symptoms will still the pangs of guilt. While sadness is justified, your common sense will know that excessive sadness is not a reasonable emotion. You will know that you must get on with your life. Your common sense will tell you. All you need is self awareness.

I Am So Sad
Can You Realign Your Vision?
You also need to realign your world view. It is but human to have something to look forward to - a happy plan for your life. Sadness intrudes, when that plan has irrevocably changed for the worse. You will not, ever again, share your burdens, your joys and sorrows with your loved one. Or, in a crucial disappointment, your career has changed for the worse. It is a situation, where every context reminds you of your loss. Your subconscious mind will cope with this situation only if you develop a new plan for your life. This is a new stage in your life. Think creatively of how you can make your life meaningful again. The very decision to plan a new beginning will suddenly open your horizons to fresh view points. Instead of dwelling on the “what might have been” images, which cause you distress, you will open your eyes to the world again.

I Am So Sad
Can You Quiet The Sadness Emotion?
Even as you work on a revised plan for your life, you will constantly encounter the “what might have been” images all around you, which will repeatedly trigger the sadness emotion. Become aware of the physical symptoms of that emotion. It could be a pang in your chest, or a knot in your stomach. It may be a drive, which makes you want to cry. Emotions are neural signals, with distinct symptoms. They will lose their power to dominate you, when you pay attention to the symptoms. Your common sense will realize that your feelings are not overpowering world views, but simple physical symptoms. Over a period of time, the emotion will have been stilled.

I Am So Sad
Are You Aware Of Your Facial Expression?
Paul Ekman noted that sadness causes the inner corners of one's eyebrows to be pulled up by the facial muscles. These muscles are not consciously activated and are tightened by the sadness emotion. Muscles have a tendency to remain tensed after being tightened. When people experience sadness over long periods, these muscles continue to remain in the tensed position. People will say “There is a sadness in her eyes.”

The same tightness in those muscles can also induce sadness. Try this experiment. Glare at this page and say “Stop it!” You will notice that your voice takes on a sharper tone. Great actors feel the emotion of a hero by copying facial expressions. Become aware of any tension in your eye muscles. Practice a more cheerful expression. While it may feel stupid at the beginning, your facial muscles will adjust and you will discover that your mind will also act in context to bring you more cheerful thoughts.

I Am So Sad
Does Your Sadness Require Treatment?
Does your sadness persist because of drugs, medication, or alcohol? Is it caused by changes in hormone levels? If there is no clear cause for your sadness, see if sunshine, music, or friends can cheer you up. A good night's rest alone may cheer you up. Ordinary sad patches will clear in a few days. If your sadness persists without a significant cause for more that two weeks, check with your doctor. A deeper and more intense sadness, without a clear cause may be a depression. If it seriously affects your life, seek professional counsel.

This page was last updated on 1-Jun-2020.